Day 30: a congrats banner for finishing the challenge

yay! I finished the challenge! I can seldom finish stuff like this, I mean, 30 days is a long time to keep something going.  Give yourself a pat in the back, joey.  Job well done.

I did the 30 days drawing challenge hoping to let you know more about me and I hope you (if you/ readers really exist) really got to know me better!  I'll find some more challenges to do if I could find any fun ones.  This 30 days drawing challenge was pretty fun, it got me picked back up on my doodling and drawing.  So, nice!

Day 29: a place you want to go to

Everything was previously explained in a post some weeks earlier.

Day 28: anything you'd like

Given the liberty to draw whatever I like? I drew a mermaid.  I'd like to draw a mermaid sitting on a unicorn with a rainbow-colored-horn, with glitters and sparkly things coming out of its butt. (cooler that nyan cat eh?) But it was too complicated and I hadn't had enough time so I just drew a mermaid sitting on a pink rock with an ugly Sun.

Day 27: someone you love

Hmm...I want to skip the cliche of saying I love my family, my mom, my dad, or whoever blood related to be.  It is obvious that I love them.  I don't have a significant other now, so who should I draw? (or will I ever have a significant other...)  My hopeless-romantic side tells me that my future hubby is somewhere out there in the world and it's just that I haven't met him yet.  It is such a ro-ro idea (romantic idea lol) that he is out there doing something and I am here doing my thing, and one day the guy and the gal will meet and fall in love and make rainbows and chocolate fountains and glitters and sparkles and erm...babies.  My realistic and sadly, my negative side, tells me that I ain't sure yet if I will find my guy, or I will be forever alone.  But I don't care.  I am in a ro-ro mood  right now, so here, I'd like to dedicate this to the future man of my life (if you actually exist), I love you baby.  

Day 26: something I don't like

When I say 'I'm fat' or 'Gosh, I look so fat", my friends all roll their eyes at me and said that I am not and I am skinny. They just don't get it, like when I say I'm fat, I don't really mean that I am fat fat.  I know I am not fat, but it's just that there are some fat on my body that I'd like to lose, but those fucking fat just don't seem to leave me alone.  If only I could do a mini liposuction to get rid of a little fat from my belly, my inner thighs and my upper arm...

Day 25: scenery

I am a city girl and I don't get to be around nature very often.  I would very much love to have a camping trip by the lake, lie down by the sand to watch the stars, huddle around a campfire with friends and just enjoy the silence, the night and the companionship of friends.

Day 24: a couple

Feeling tribal and boho today, so here's my tribal couple of the day.

Day 23: something I need

Yes, I know, it's such a cliche.  But please, I want it.  I need it.

Day 22: something you miss

This was quite a challenge to me because there weren't much big changes in my life, nor have I lost someone or something that was extremely dear to my heart.  I don't really know what I miss.  

Then I thought of this.  I miss those days when I don't have to wear bras.  I could just let everything free fall (not that there was anything to droop down then, I was too young and hadn't hit puberty yet), and not worry about the nips and droopy boobies.  Cotton under-vests (are these what they are called) are so much more comfy and cool; bras are just cages that make you sweat and suffocate you in hot summer afternoons such as now.  

Day 21: something I want

More like some things I want.  I just can't pick one, and these aren't all.  Modern girl problems, I guess, the desires just won't stop.  But to sum up the illustrated things above that I want: what I want is to be pretty.  I am looking like a drag right now, gosh.  

Day 20: something orange

So I was looking around and thinking what orange thing I'm going to draw ( I don't want to draw the obvious fruit), I saw on the table my book that I've just finished reading earlier this morning.  Orange book covers, yay!  I am really starting to like this design.  When I first looked at the cover, I was thinking, 'why would anyone use this obnoxious bright orangey color for book covers?'  But then I started to appreciate the prettiness of this bright orangey color because I can now locate my book easily and don't have to flip through piles of messy mess to find my book.  Oh, and I may do a post on the book later on, I'm still thinking. 

Day 19: something new

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I've been looking for something like this for so long.  Sleeveless button-ups are classic, but all that I can find on the market are chiffon ones and I hate that thin and sheer fabric because I got to wear something underneath it if I don't want to show my bra.  This denim one (amazing quality, it's American Apparel so that's why) don't need no cami or bralette or any cover up underneath.  Also, I 've always got a thing for crop tops, so this button-up is plain perfecto.  

Day 18: just a doodle

Just a doodle, as random as it gets.  I got nothing to say today.

Day 17: favorite plant

My favorite plant/ flower is peony.  I just think they are so pretty and beautiful.  They are like balls of pale pink beauties, and so soft and delicate as well.  It's a bummer they don't smell as exquisite as they look to me.  Oh, and I just came to realize that in chinese culture (my culture oh yeah), peonies symbolizes nobility and values, which is really interesting and nice, yay! 

Day 16: inspiration

Hmm...this was a tough one and I can't think of one particular thing or person that is my inspiration.  Everything is inspiration if one pays attention and puts some thoughts to it, right?

Day 15: family portrait

I'll go ahead and say, I HAVE THE BEST FAMILY EVER. We do argue and piss each other off, but ultimately, we love each other and everything eventually becomes okay.  Never have I, nor my sister, experienced any stormy and dark puberty years.  I am really thankful for that.   I am so blessed to have such a loving family.   I have faith that no matter what happens in the future, no matter what terrible things I did or happened to me, or to any of us, we will have each others' back and I can always return to my family for all the love, support and comfort I need.  Cheesy, ikr, but idc.

Day 14: favorite fairy tale

I'm not really a big fan of fairy tales.  I do know them, but I don't really have a favorite.  I think, Jasmine is the prettiest of them all, so I'll just draw her from Aladdin.

Day 13: comic

I will go ahead and admit I am so under the influence of the media these days.  I mean, who isn't?  I'd like to be slimmer.  I am not saying I am as meaty as the girl in the comic; I am super thankful of what God has given me.  But there are indeed some fat in those tricky areas that I'd like to shed.  Give me a skinny fairy and please work some magic on me.

Day 12: most recent accomplishment

I couldn't think of any cool and awesome things that I've achieved recently.  Well, I've finished my diploma, I've graduated and etc but these are all boring stuff that no one cares about.  So, I think the coolest thing I did recently and which counts as an achievement is playing Slender.  I wanted to play it for a long long time but I was so scared to play it.  Gosh, the game is super creepy and scary that I dragged my bestie to play with me.  And we screamed the hell out of ourselves and scared ourselves so much.  The sound effects and all that just drove us nuts.  We didn't win and kill Slender like Pewdiepie did, but hey, at least I had a go at playing the game.

day 11: turning point in my life

heart to heart confession time maybe?

Two years ago, my sister left home to study abroad and it was quite a difficult time, a dark time even, for me because I had to readjust.   It was a time of me self- exploring and getting to know who I am, and finding out who I want myself  to be.  It was quite a turning point for me because all my life, I have had a sister who would play with me, quarrel with me, share bedrooms with me, share wardrobes with me; whom I can talk to whenever and hide behind whenever things get difficult. And now she is no longer available 24/7, no longer beside me all the time. 

You can say I was living in her shadow all along and it's a mixed feeling.  I don't want to be in her shadow (she shines so brightly and is so great in whatever she does), but I also had been seeking refuge in her shadow for the past 16 years of my life.  I felt naked, it felt as if suddenly I have lost my shield to the obstacles that I face, obstacles that I would usually be able to shield away and escape from.  Yet, it also felt exhilarating because it is finally my time to shine and it is finally about me.  I think some younger siblings out there might get what I felt, at least a bit of it, I know everyone's feelings are different. 

 I won't get all deep into what I went through and talk about all my emotions and tears back then.  No one is interested anyway.  But I think I could say I came out of this turning point of my life victoriously.  I think I really did.  And I am glad that I am joining my sister next year.  There won't be a 12-hour time lag between us, but only a 6-hour driving trip.  And I know that even if I am physically closer to my sis (though not as close as when we were living together at home), I won't be in her shadow anymore and I will shine brightly as I am.