Heaven knows I'm miserable now

Heaven knows I'm miserable now- The Smiths

In my life

Why do I give valuable time

To people who don't care if I live or die

Almost Lover - A Fine Frenzy

Almost Lover- A Fine Frenzy

Your fingertips across my skin

The palm trees swaying in the wind

Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies

The sweetest sadness in your eyes

Clever Trick

I never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover

Goodbye, my hopeless dream

Can't you just let me be?

So long, my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

I should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

home, let me come home

I first heard of and listened to this song three summers ago when I was in America, far away from home.  And three summers after, I am in American now, and again am far away from home.  What's different this time is that I am here to stay, not for a month only like last time, but for four years.  Hong Kong will always be my home though, or rather; like the song but a tit-bit different, home is where I belong with my mama and papa and my family.  I will miss them dearly and I can't wait to see them next summer back home.  Home, let me come home.

All By Myself

I've never felt a song get me that much as this one, and it sure is a spur of a moment thing; but still, this morning, this song was like the summary of my now, my situation.  My family left this morning and 'All by Myself' kept looping in my head non-stop, even when I tried playing another song.  I suddenly felt so alone.  I am alone.  This is what I thought.  I don't wanna be all by myself.   It should be my new life here in the university and I should be all excited and happy about it.  But the thing is, I was doubting if I really wanted all of this.  There was just me and myself here, and no one gets me and there's no one to talk to.

So here is a slice of loneliness and emptiness I'd like to share.  Please do close your eyes and imagine, feel the moment, the emotion, and take a little bit of this solitude in, so as to ease this bottomless hole in my heart.

I'm just joking, I'm feeling much better now.  I will make it through, I have to.  Because this is what I've always wanted.  I won't be all by myself for long.

Never Seen Such Good Things

Big Black Car - Gregory Alan Isakov

I fell in love with this song the moment I heard it.  It's just so beautiful.  Apart from lost love (that I can't really relate to because I've never been in love), I feel like it's about the loss of innocence and the realization of reality.  It's about life, how we used to see everything as wonderful and miraculous, and how slowly, things and people change and fail us; and we all end up with just this never ending hope that we could be something in life's glory. 

Lyrics:

You were a phonograph, I was a kid

I sat with an ear close, just listening

I was there when the rain tapped her way down you face

You were a miracle. …I was just holdin' your space

Well time has a way of throwing it all in your face

The past, she is haunted, the future is laced

Heartbreak, ya know, drives a big black car

Swear I was in the back seat, just minding my own

And through the glass, the corn crows come like rain

They won't stay, they won't stay

For too long now

This could be all that we know

Of love and all.

Well you were a dancer, I was a rag

The song in my head, well was all that I had

Hope was a letter I never could send

Love was a country we couldn't defend.

And through the carnival we watch them go round and round

All we knew of home was just a sunset and some clowns

Well you were a magazine, I was a plane jane

Just walking the sidewalks all covered in rain

Love to just get into one of your stories

Just me and all of my Plain Jane glory

a little fall of rain

A Little Fall of Rain

Les Miserables has the best songs and lyrics ever.  I could still remember watching the 10th Anniversary Edition with my mom when I was small and singing along (of course I sang terribly).  The melody and the way they sang it just left me in awe every time.  As I grew older, I came to appreciate the words too, and I appreciate them a lot.  They're so so beautiful and I wish one day, I could write something like them.  The movie was really different from the musicals, but it's wonderful as well.  The shots were so raw and real, I was sucked deep into the movie the moment it began.  A Little Fall of Rain is one of my favorite out of all the songs, and I mean, how could anyone just have one favorite among those heavenly melodies and words.  So here are some of my other favorites.

A Heart Full of Love

Drink with Me

Stars

Empty Chairs at Empty Tables

There are just so many, I should stop here before I flood this post with videos.

St. Augustine

St. Augustine is such a beautiful, beautiful song.  I love the tingling sad feeling that it gives.  And also the calmness and peacefulness in the voice and melody, though the images and words are quite violent, and full of frustration, regret and remorse.  It is a great mix of gentleness in the tone and the slight violence/self-destruction (perhaps?) in the words.

Lyrics: 

Silver scents of Saint Augustine
Fire in the ground
Between my better teeth
We're dancing on the poison in their graves
At the end of the night
We'd all seen better days

I know you tried
I know you're cursed
I know your best was still your worst
When Hollywood was calling out your name

Saint Augustine

if I stayed behind
Would you let your hair grow?
I will forget
The favors that you owe
I'm dreaming of car wrecks and thunderstorms bright
Let's bury ourselves
And go haunt someone tonight

I know you tried
I know you're cursed
I know your best was still your worst
When Hollywood was calling out your name

Saint Augustine

itsy bitsy teenie weenie yellow polka dot bikini

Apologies for the future never-ending looping of this song in your head for the rest of your day.  But I'm sure you won't mind.  And Brian Hyland, you stole my heart away.

San Franciso - The Mowgli's

Recently, I'v been looping this song in my head all day long.  Guess you all can tell I'm in a uber good and bubbly mood.  

Music Monday: Lately - Memory House

Music Monday: New Soul - Yael Niam

I've been enjoying my summer holiday and chilling with my friends and this bubbly song just fits the mood of how I've been feeling lately. I'm indeed a new soul and as I'm moving on to a whole new chapter of my life.  I am graduating; I am becoming an adult; I am heading to a new environment, to be a new fish in a whole new different pond.  

True, there are nervous moments and panic attack sometimes about the unknown future that I will have to go through alone, without my friends and family here.  But, just like this song, I know I will make mistakes and there will be joyful moments as well as moments when I fear and worry, and I wish (I know) that this will be a happy end. 

Music Monday: Everything Has Changed - Taylor Swift ft Ed Sheeran

I am not really super cray cray about the melody itself, I mean, it sounds nice; and their voices sounded superb together (Ed Sheeran's magical and perfect voice can do no wrong anyway).  But the video though, is the cutest thing ever!  The mini Taylor and Ed look uber cute and lovely together and I just can't help smiling while watching this.  The twist in the end is really nicely done as well.  Hype!
(now I wish I hadn't studied in a girls' school all my life...)